You should be wilder,you're no fun at all.

Yesterday i faaaaaailed.
by that i mean that instead of cleaning my room when coming home yesterday
i knocked out on the couch.
the only time i woke up was when my sister woke me up to go to bed.
but this morning i accomplished cleaning Sid's litter,i also
purchased her a cage.should get here next week.
one good thing that did come out from yesterday was that
my sweetheart Apollo;my sister's dog,greeted me at the door when i got home.
he's such a sweetie,i love him to death.
xoxo

Give me your joy and give me your pain,i'll take the hit and feel no shame.

I'm hoping i can ACTUALLY get things done tonight when i
get home from class.
i tend to come home tremendously tired,so i take a nap,wake up,and go back
upstairs to my room and sleep.
but i seriously have to HAVE TO get this stuff done before it gets worst.
by "stuff" i mean cleaning my room.i haven't cleaned it since february??
it's in dire need of cleaning.i have clothes,shoes,bags,books,movies,and
what not all over the floor.also i need to clear out my closet and
organize my things better.
on Wednesday i'm planning on visiting my home school teacher Chris,haven't
seen him since February as well.and i promised to keep in touch.
he reminds me too much of Jim from The Office :)
so yeah i have to do that,then come home and get a pattern done for my
pattern making class.
i'm designing some vertical stripe pants for The Script show since
i can't seem to find any AT ALL!!!!!
soooo...why not make them???

xoxo

Sometimes i think i was born backwards.

"she broke my heart!"
"she broke my heart as well.you broke my heart.
i bet you've broken hers at some point.so what are we gonna do?
are we just free losers screwin each other forever?
or are we something better than that?"

The moment of our love.

I am not one to love.
i self-destruct all my relationships 'cos i'm scared to let someone
know me,skin deep.
i love love though,everything about it is wonderful and treacherous.
it makes you weak and helpless...then it has the other side,loving.
your life isn't your own anymore.
i dunno how to love.i feel like i love the wrong way.
or that the love i do have isn't enough.
so i hide my heart,and only few have seen it.

It's in the stars we'll never die if we stay together.

Tonight is the premiere of The Dudesons In America!
i am too excited,i mean SERIOUSLY excited.i know my day will go great
'cos it all leads to them :)
they can honestly cheer me up on a horrid day.
i can feel like total shit and watching them makes those feelings
fly out the window,i feel complete bliss and filled with joy.
i can cry and laugh and know that everything will be alright.
so just dedicating my day to these four killer finnish boys;Jukka,Jarno,HP,and Jarppi.
for all the laughter and wisdom they've brought into my life.
and i can't forget the happy memories they gave me in those couple of minutes.

xoxo

Missä muruseni on?

Waiting for the summer is unlike me.
it's usually the season i dislike the most,the cold runs in my blood.
which is why i love the autumn and winter.
for some reason i really can't wait for my summer vacation 'cos i have to get
my shit together.i have loads of things that i must get done.
and i guess i shall now spill that in summer of 2012 i may go to Finland :)
i'll be done with school in a year,and from here i'm going to study in Helsinki for the summer.
and while in Finland i'm hoping on finding jobs in fashion.
so i finally know what i want to do and how.i was speaking about flaws last week,and i got the idea of doing a photo of me and my sister's eyes.
it's all natural lighting,there's NO PHOTOSHOP.all i did to it was turn
it black and white except for our eyes.
that's her natural eye colour and natural long lashes;which my sisters and i envy,
and as for me that is a NATURAL beauty mark under my eye,i DO NOT draw it on.
why would i??does it look like i have time to draw it on all the time?no.
and that is my "natural" eye colour.
let me explain 'cos some don't understand.so my natural eye colour is REALLY dark,
almost black;as a kid my brother wanted them haha,anyways so,the outer part is
a blue.but then;here's the crazy part,they change to a dark blue,and also change to
green with blue specs.
my mum and dad think that it's 'cos my eyes can't decide if they wanted his colour
or my mum's family's eye colour...i on the other hand wish they
were just one colour,you know,'cos it's the NORMAL thing.but eh,just eyes i suppose.

xoxo

Music is my god,and is the only love that has never left me.

I wanted to do a blog on what i've been listening to lately.
i mostly listen to foreign music or bands from different countries.
here we go:
1.HIM-"Disarm Me(with your loneliness)"the whole screamworks album in its entirety
2.Chisu-"Sama Nainen"
3.Jenni Vartiainen-"Missä Muruseni On?" "Halvalla"
4.Keane-"Your Eyes Open" "Perfect Symmetry"
5.Blue Foundation-"Watch You Sleeping"
6.A Fine Frenzy-"Happier"
7.The Script-"If You See Kay" "The End Where I Begin"
8.Negative-"Neverending Parade"
9.Elvis Perkins-"Send My Fond Regards To Lonelyville"
10.Mazzy Star-"Take Everything"
11.Manna-"For Your Information" "She Moves"
12.Daniel Lioneye-"We Gonna Go Rockin Tonight"
13.The Sounds-"Night After Night" "Midnight Sun"
14.The Beatles-"Get Back" "I Saw Her Standing There"
15.Damn Seagulls-"Once We Were Thieves"
enjoy the lovely music ;)

xoxo