A bad dream.

Not really doing much right now...
i feel drained though,and it's obviously from school.i am talking to one of my best mates Abe though,he can always cheer me up and we can literally laugh the whole time we are talking or texting.
at the moment all i am really catching myself listening to 'cos of the mood i am in is:
Jenni Vartiainen,Chisu,The Script,Iconcrash,Negative,and Type O Negative.
just some nice soothing romantic,torturing music...oh and foreign too :)
also at the moment i am eating chinese food in my comfy pyjamas.

hei hei
xoxo

You are my haven in life and death.

I am beyond tired and sleepy today,i really had a lot of homework,plus i had little sleep on monday night since i was finishing up my midterm for Fashion Illustration.

i'm just laying here on the couch watching Conan again,as my legs begin to itch from a rash.

anyways,i can't believe that next friday Harry Potter comes out,i already got my midnight showing tickets :)

hope you all have a lovely night and sweet dreams.

hei hei

xoxo

And now when I sleep,there is complete silence.

Sometimes the hardest thing in life is love,

and the hardest question you can ever ask yourself if it's time to let go or if you should just wait?

i've asked myself this question for the past year,and i always come up with the conclusion that i'll stay and wait no matter how long it takes 'cos i really love this person with every cell in my body.but could that ever be enough for him?

it seems like no,since he can't see what i'm putting myself through for him.

you can say he's selfish for only thinking about himself...but when you think about it,love is selfish.

when it comes to the realm of love we always think about ourselves and what we need and want.there's no escaping that.

another conclusion that i have also come to face is to just let him go,it's not like i'm giving up right?

'cos all i am really doing is letting go of him just to save myself before i become non-existent.at times i feel like he's doing this to me to punish me and hurt me,like if it was all just a game.

and it gets me really angry,with not just him but with myself for letting him have that big of a hold on my decisions and life in general.

at this point i feel like it's a mute point,i love him,i truly do!!!

but he just can't see that,if he could only,for one day open his eyes and see what i am about,and where i'm coming from.will he then understand?i dunno...

in the meantime all i am left with right now is pain that i'm trying to hide from everyone...and i'm pretty damn good at it,if i can say so myself.

besides being left with just the pain,i am left here trying to heal myself with music that really numbs the pain,and with school distractions.

but even then,pain can't be numb for too long,we soon enough get to feel the "after-shock" of we are trying to hide so often.sometimes,it's better to just face the pain and hurt that we are going through instead of ignoring every bit of agonizing second that we aren't with this person.

hei hei

xoxo

We are living in misery.

Just working on my trends and concepts homework.
pretty busy once again,i already can't wait for this week to be over.
there's nothing much that's interesting about my life right now besides doing loads of school work.
hope your lives are much more interesting than mine at the moment.

hei hei
xoxo

Promise Me.

I realize now i can't get you back,
i pushed you too far away,you were too strong to be led on.
and now i know the face that will haunt me forever,oh what have i done.
just please,please promise me somewhere dark and deep in your heart,
you'll keep a tiny place for me where no one else can reach.

just relaxing at home today,it's gloomy outside and kind of cold which i am very much loving to death!i still am going to take my pictures today,the weather never prevents me from doing that.
hope you all have a lovely saturday.

hei hei
xoxo

Seems like love no loger can turn me,i got a nasty habit called rock n'roll.

Sorry for not making my blogs pretty interesting lately,i just have been bombed by school work.
hopefully tomorrow i will upload the pictures from my Halloween weekend,i know all extra late right?
not just that but i want to do more blogs that contain photos on my day and what not,i also wanted to post a letter that i had written during my Visual Language and Culture class so i wouldn't fall asleep,so yeah haha.
i'm trying to get most of my homework done today so i can have more relaxing time this weekend,tomorrow i will try to take pictures that i was inspired from Jenni's new video that i posted up yesterday.
i hope you darlings have a lovely Friday!

hei hei
xoxo

The two of them so small like the tiniest stars in the wintery sky.

Finally my weekend starts,i really need this break.
all i'm doing right now is watching Vampire Diaries and eating pizza,next Monday is the premiere for Conan's show,i'm too excited to see him again!
so this is pretty much it for today,and i'll leave you all with one of my favourite Finnish singers,Jenni and her latest video for Missä muruseni on.

i'm going to try and do my make up with both looks that she has on this weekend and will take pictures.

hei hei
xoxo