Looking back.

Going back to the beginning of this year i didn't really have any expectations of how my life should be going,i did however have hopes and dreams and that's all i really took with me.i had hope of having a relationship,meeting HIM,being happy,and having new friends.
i had no boyfriend,and i was happy on most days of this year,plans never go according to plan.every step you take leads you to a whole new place,a dream,a person,an action,and emotion.
i did however meet HIM and i also got to do things that i never expected,i met and hung out with The Dudesons,i started college and met new people with new stories,i made art that moved me,read new books that inspired me,heard new music that helped me express myself,i reunited with my dog Tink who i hadn't seen for two years.yes,i had my moments where i was let down and sad,but at the end of the day i still had the good things that did happen to me this year.
i dunno what this year has to offer but i'm sure as hell going to accept whatever comes my way.

remember New Years doesn't mean that you have a whole new life,'cos when you awake after that night of drinks and partying,you may still have that grudge you have on a person,you may still hurt from what someone has done to you,you will awake with the past still lingering.it's up to you to make the move and make a new start,and it doesn't always have to begin on the new year,it can start on any day that you decide.

i wish you all the best on the upcoming year!and have a lot of fun :)

hei hei
xoxo

ja me ei olla niin kuin muut.

I need to start updating this more...i think.
these are some photos of these past two weeks,except the drawing was from long ago this month.tomorrow is the last day of December,still can't believe how fast time flies by.
of course i will be getting dressed tomorrow,and hanging out with the family as every holiday is almost the same.
we're going to get our tarot cards read for the new year,by my sister,like the beginning of this year.hopefully next year will be a brilliant year for me.

hei hei
xoxo

The end where i begin.

just relaxing on the couch with my family,watching Eloise in Christmastime.

i love that movie :)

i still can't believe the year is almost over,it feels surreal.and right now i am also feeling a little sick hehehe, both me and my sister are actually.

and just to post it here...i think last week???i dunno but i started a tumblr,and i post things that i love and adore and i also post pictures that i take once in a while :)

so here is the url Lupeteaa.tumblr.com

enjoy your day lovelies!

hei hei

xoxo

You sailed my boat...

it's been a good break so far,haven't written on here 'cos i needed space from things.

just a couple of minutes ago i figured out what i want for the new year.

i don't want to cling onto mates so much,i'm growing up and i want to be on my own and have my own space.i dunno how you can break that to people you've known for so long,but i truly love being in my solitude and focusing on my things.i know people usually say it but you know that they really hate being alone.

but me...i really love my fucking privacy,i don't love going out everyday of the week,i can be happy in my home and in my own mind,but people never get that point.

i'll try changing that for the new year,a fresh start,and my own independence.

hope you all had a beautiful Christmas,now New Years is coming up.

hei hei

xoxo

Love like winter.

During these winter days,that i am not at school,and that i am at home almost all day in my solitude…all i manage to listen to is Finnish music that is melancholy.even during this week that there’s a holiday in,i still manage to feel all alone and lost.i’ve grown used to feeling numb and empty.but this time i feel…

i dunno how i feel…all i know is that this feeling i have deep down in my chest,heart,and soul is the feeling that i may always carry with me ‘til death.

i dunno,i’ll see how i awake tomorrow.

hei hei

xoxo

I'm trying not to think about you,can't you just let me be.

Another day of hanging out with my best mate,we did some Christmas shopping which always ends up being fun.she also stayed here for a couple of hours and my mum even got to pierce her ears.

she just left like thirty minutes ago.

there's nothing much that has been happening with me during this break,i did though,last night make a painting of Apollo;my sister's dog,for her as a Christmas present...i really loved how it ended up,it's quite cute.

i'm pretty excited to get dressed up for this Friday :)

i hope you're all enjoying your break!

hei hei

xoxo

oh.wow.lovely.

it was such a wonderful morning.

my mum came back from the hospital around nine in the morning,which i was very happy to see her as soon as i came down the stairs.she made me some chicken noodle soup which was amazing.

now i'm sitting my the window watching the raindrops hit the floor,while i listen to both of Jenni Vartiainen's albums.i think after i'm done with that i will go onto listening to Manna's albums.both their albums make me feel wicked awesome with this weather.

i feel like going out,getting wet,unraveling mysteries,or even crying about my past.

later on i'm going shopping with my dad for my best mates Christmas present since i wasn't able to do that yesterday.

hei hei

xoxo