These words always stood out me when i heard them."You know the trouble with you Lupe?
you live in words,not in the real world.
you think too much,you dream too much."
that has always been a "problem" of mine.
but as a child i taught myself that dreaming/daydreaming would
be the only way to escape from the chaos,and that's
the only way i received love.my dreams,my fantasies,my books,my pets.
i was lonesome all along,and those things were always present.
i could wander off in my thoughts and everyone would love me.
but recently everyone has a problem with how i've been living my life.
i can't be alone,and as of lately i'm not allowing myself to think
of things that are going to make me harm myself.
it'll be only for a while...i hope.
after all i am a mental person and our thoughts are always strange,crazy,and demented;
out of the ordinary,and shouldn't be thought of in the "real world."
but that's who i am...inexplicable,a dream,an illusion,elusive,and enigmatic.
xoxo
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