From Finland with love.

I'm wearing my sequins hot pants,a burnout racer back tank,some knee high socks,and wedges.
some mates said that i always look sad in my pictures,
but to be honest,i have sad eyes.i can be the happiest gal in this world
and everyone would think that i am deceiving them 'cos of my eyes.
my eyes reflect my inside...it's all.

on another note yesterday i went to the beach with my siblings and
the only part of my body that got a tan was my feet xD
i am still the same light skinned girly...though my freckles were flaunting
themselves as soon as the sunshine was hitting on them,i love them :)

happy memorial day to all!
hei hei.
xoxo

'til you realize your solitude is only a phase you're going through for all the lonely,in the book of love.

"do you know what hurts most about a broken heart?not being able to remember how you felt before...try and keep that feeling,because...if it goes...you'll never get it back."
"what happens then?"
"you lay waste to the world...and everything in it."

Tonight i have loads of plans!
my Sex and the City marathon with my siblings,i also have to bake Apollo some
lovely treats that i baked for Tink on her second birthday.
i also have to sketch out a couple of designs for my Fashion Industry class.
yesterday evening i received my book on Finland.
it's really such a fascinating read,i've learned so much in just one day.
i just have a couple of pages and i am done with the read :)

hei hei
xoxo

She blew me a kiss goodbye.

If there was one thing that i wish my mum would have taught me,
it would have been to never give your heart away.
or to at least have given me a warning on how much love really hurts.
i wish she would have beat me and told me
"love hurts more than that.the bruises may fade away and never show,
but the scars that come from love are more profound,and will never heal.
and if you want to move on,it's like having to sell your soul."

xoxo
hyvää yötä.

I figured out your wicked ways.

As promised a day ago or two??
that i was going to post a bulletin on the page 43 that Ville sings about in
"shatter me with hope"
the lyric is:"She'll be the witness to the repose of Evelyn.
push the needle in to the of canticles of ecstasy.
turn to page 43 and you'll know how I feel."

This image is page 43 on LIFE magazine,i think it was from 1947
and it's basically Evelyn McHale.
she committed suicide by jumping off the empire state building.
her suicide note read something around the lines of
"he is better of without me...i wouldn't be a good wife for anybody."
this was after a visit to her Fiance's.
the picture was only taken a few minutes after she jumped.
if you want a clearer view,just click on the image and it'll get big.
I printed this picture out 'cos there is something about her face and
just the pose that i think is so beautiful.
there's no blood,and her face doesn't look messed up from the fall.
(landed on top of a car)
so basically i think Ville is referring to how he's not good enough
for any girl.since all his relationships have been quite shitty.
it's just so beautiful to me,how he puts codes and what not in his lyrics
and you end up learning;not only about other "historical" people,but also
how he deeply feels.
guess that's all...pretty genius right?!? ;)

hei hei
xoxo

Your eyes open.

An epic,yet tiring day.
went to the LACMA museum with my design class this afternoon,
and it was fun.but later on you can tell that i was tired and exhausted.
i've been watching too much Sex and the City.and it's making me think of stuff
i do not want to.ugh!
last night;before bed,i finally found out what the page 43 was about.
the one that Ville sings about in "Shatter Me With Hope"
believe me i felt like a detective for a few hours,but am happy that i finally know
how he feels.pretty sad,and i'll have to write about it...maybe tomorrow??
it's really good!!!!and dreamt about it.
so i'm tired and maybe i should hit the hay?

hyvää yötä!!
xoxo

The city takes care of it.

The Craft is such an inspirational movie;for fashion of course
i love the styles.
the stockings,boots,floral patterns,rosaries,mesh tops,etc.
i first saw this movie when i was REALLY young,'cos of my older sister.
and i think so far this weekend i've seen it about three times.
i just simply love it!last night i did these little designs on my toe nails.
watermelon and vertical stripes.
and as for my fingers it's all black and the thumbs are vertical stripes!
i just LOVE them :)
(my foot looks like that since i was sitting on it before i took the pic)

hei hei.
xoxo

Minä ja hän.

Sunday funday!
not really but yeah all i'm really doing is listening to some
Finnish music while my right ear is a bit deaf 'cos i got water in it >____<
last night my sister and i were watching the five hour Sex and the City marathon
on TBS.it was a good night filled with laughs,coke,and pedicures.
this upcoming Saturday we're all;my sister's and i, are going to have a
Sex and the City marathon,should be pretty ace.
yesterday morning i went to the park with my love Beidy and her siblings,
it was really fun and chill.just laying on a picnic blanket
as we reminisced about high school.
and talked about how being in other countries is so much more
relaxing and peaceful than the U.S.

hei hei
xoxo

Ticket to ride

A couple of the albums i've been listening to a lot!
-HIM:Screamworks:Love in Theory and Practice.
this album is seriously genius;when aren't they,haha.every song is catchy
i don't dislike one.but of course my absolute favourites are "Disarm Me"
"In Venere Veritas" and "In The Arms Of Rain."
such a wicked album.
-The Script:The Script.
it's pretty last year old,but still such a lovely album.
i found them when i first started my home schooling last February.
his voice caught my attention;and my mum's,he's really an amazing singer and
songwriter.
-Jenni Vartiainen:Seili.
best "sophomore" album in my opinion.her first album was amazingness,and this
one is just a ball of fire.it's intense,passionate,and lovely.
all the tracks are catchy...she's been teaching me some of my finnish haha.
also i think she's one of the best singers(in finnish language)
-Damn Seagulls:Hunting Season.
another band from Helsinki,i seriously thought that they were australian...and
for no reason,it was just an assumption.turns out they're finnish as well :)
they're such a lush band,you can sing along to all their songs,or just
listen to them on a long car ride home,very chill.
-Kill Hannah:Wake Up The Sleepers.
need i say more???all the tracks are catchy,my favourite to dance along to
is "Strobe Lights" you get a ton of other artists lending their voice
on this.simply lush.
-Keane:Perfect Symmetry.
wicked band,wicked music,wicked lyrics.
that's all there is to it,they're very talented!
-Manna:Songs Of Hope And Desire.
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE Manna.you really hear a lot of 60's 70's rock influence
in this album.she has such a beautiful voice and the songs are splendid.
i absolutely love "She Moves" which i can relate to a lot.
it's about not really having a place in this world and just being on the move
'cos you don't really have a home,but you're on the journey to find it.
i love it to bits.and another i die for is "For Your Information" which i
feel deep down in my heart is about Linde/ex-husband/HIM guitarist.
it's such a sad song,how she's going to let him go and he'll move on.sad,
but a killer cd.
-Keane:Night Train.
YES!!!!!another Keane album,i don't have to say much 'cos
their work speaks for itself.
-Blue Foundation:Life Of A Ghost.
beauty!i'm really speechless with their stuff.
i love the piano,and her voice is simply divine and heartbreaking.
lovely lyrics as well.all in all such a good band.

p.s. my freckles/pixie kisses are finally coming in :)
i only get them on summers,but they aren't like the ones redheads have.
mines are light brown/light pink,and sometimes blend with my natural pink blush.

hei hei
xoxo

Wild hearts.

Wanted to make a post on one of my favourite girls of the 60's.
Uschi,i really love what she did and the films and her modeling.
it may have seemed "vulgar" but i think she made it classy in some sort of way.
and of course i think she has aged really well.

hei hei :)
xoxo

Jokainen aamu jokainen ilta.

Seems like i haven't written on here in eons,but i'm here now.
ready to start fresh and new,not falling back to my old habits.
i've been tired of things bringing me down emotionally,and it drains me.
a huge burden that i've carried with me for a year.
it's time for me to face it and get it over with 'cos that's the only way
i will leave this strain behind.
the cure for the heart is to move along.
so i've started a new way of living-i started last night.
i did some yoga and read this book;that always helps me,before i went to sleep.
when i woke up this morning i did some yoga and ordered a new book.
so my new routine is to do yoga every morning and night;like i used to.
practice my finnish daily,read,do my art,make clothing patterns,practice some
new songs on the keyboards.
i just have to keep myself distracted and keep my head up.
'cos i used to be strong and i used to be happy with who i was,and i've
noticed myself deteriorate.
so i'm going to fix things myself,taking back my life like i should have
months...a year ago.
you told me "my darling,without me your nothing."

hei hei :)
xoxo

If you steal my sunshine.

Woke up with many inspirations this morning.
but now i feel like...blah??
i was supposed to start on my pop-art tonight for class;tuesday.
but me dad won't get ink 'til tomorrow,
which is such rubbish 'cos i really want to start on it right now.
i was stuck on doing it on either Ville or Edward Scissorhands...but i
decided to do both of them and get an answer from my classmates on tuesday.
also feel like getting all dressed up and go out somewhere.to dance or to even roam around this city.

xoxo

Losing my mind,waiting for you.

Your heart beats fast as you walk up that path that may change
your life forever.your palms get clammy,and your mind begins to leave you.
i got that feeling yesterday,which was such a wonderful day;feels like a dream.
after school my mates and i decide to hang out since the
weather was pretty lovely,so we decided to go to the beach.
it was really fun running around acting like little kiddies.after being there
for a while i asked my mate beidy if she could take me to go see "my" dog Tink.
i had to give her away or else we would've gotten kicked out of our home.
so it was like tearing a huge part of my life.
my life was never the same after that,i shut myself completely.
i hated myself even more than i did,and i was left crying myself to sleep
for months.wishing that i would've spent my time with her even more wisely.
she was my only friend and my soulmate.
i had not seen her in more than two years 'cos of problems with the
family we gave her to.
sooo,as soon as she parked those feelings were pulsing in my body.(it was tink's b-day)
when we got out the car i immediately got scared and got back in,
but my mate danny told me "Be a man!" and automatically i stood up straight and
went for it,i had the support of beidy to come with me.
and when i rang the doorbell i could hear her crying :3
i knew that my baby missed me,they had to hold her back to open the door.
and they were surprised;for obvious reasons,and they let her go and she ran to me.
you would never believe how hard i was trying to hold back my tears.
i thought she would forget me,but my fear was ridiculous.i just can't explain
the happiness that coursed through my body.she was alive and so was i and here
we were torn apart by roads,but our hearts and love remained the same.
she may have looked different physically but her heart,aura,and soul was the same.
so after a while of seeing them (tink,pedro,their pups)i left with a sweet goodbye.
pedro and tink gave me a sad face and licked me :)
then we went to the park and did our stupid acts.
overall i feel completely happy and my "Buried Life" list is almost done with.
i met HIM,the dudesons,and saw tink in one year.we'll see how better things get.
sorry for rambling on and on.
xoxo