Looking back.

Going back to the beginning of this year i didn't really have any expectations of how my life should be going,i did however have hopes and dreams and that's all i really took with me.i had hope of having a relationship,meeting HIM,being happy,and having new friends.
i had no boyfriend,and i was happy on most days of this year,plans never go according to plan.every step you take leads you to a whole new place,a dream,a person,an action,and emotion.
i did however meet HIM and i also got to do things that i never expected,i met and hung out with The Dudesons,i started college and met new people with new stories,i made art that moved me,read new books that inspired me,heard new music that helped me express myself,i reunited with my dog Tink who i hadn't seen for two years.yes,i had my moments where i was let down and sad,but at the end of the day i still had the good things that did happen to me this year.
i dunno what this year has to offer but i'm sure as hell going to accept whatever comes my way.

remember New Years doesn't mean that you have a whole new life,'cos when you awake after that night of drinks and partying,you may still have that grudge you have on a person,you may still hurt from what someone has done to you,you will awake with the past still lingering.it's up to you to make the move and make a new start,and it doesn't always have to begin on the new year,it can start on any day that you decide.

i wish you all the best on the upcoming year!and have a lot of fun :)

hei hei
xoxo

ja me ei olla niin kuin muut.

I need to start updating this more...i think.
these are some photos of these past two weeks,except the drawing was from long ago this month.tomorrow is the last day of December,still can't believe how fast time flies by.
of course i will be getting dressed tomorrow,and hanging out with the family as every holiday is almost the same.
we're going to get our tarot cards read for the new year,by my sister,like the beginning of this year.hopefully next year will be a brilliant year for me.

hei hei
xoxo

The end where i begin.

just relaxing on the couch with my family,watching Eloise in Christmastime.

i love that movie :)

i still can't believe the year is almost over,it feels surreal.and right now i am also feeling a little sick hehehe, both me and my sister are actually.

and just to post it here...i think last week???i dunno but i started a tumblr,and i post things that i love and adore and i also post pictures that i take once in a while :)

so here is the url Lupeteaa.tumblr.com

enjoy your day lovelies!

hei hei

xoxo

You sailed my boat...

it's been a good break so far,haven't written on here 'cos i needed space from things.

just a couple of minutes ago i figured out what i want for the new year.

i don't want to cling onto mates so much,i'm growing up and i want to be on my own and have my own space.i dunno how you can break that to people you've known for so long,but i truly love being in my solitude and focusing on my things.i know people usually say it but you know that they really hate being alone.

but me...i really love my fucking privacy,i don't love going out everyday of the week,i can be happy in my home and in my own mind,but people never get that point.

i'll try changing that for the new year,a fresh start,and my own independence.

hope you all had a beautiful Christmas,now New Years is coming up.

hei hei

xoxo

Love like winter.

During these winter days,that i am not at school,and that i am at home almost all day in my solitude…all i manage to listen to is Finnish music that is melancholy.even during this week that there’s a holiday in,i still manage to feel all alone and lost.i’ve grown used to feeling numb and empty.but this time i feel…

i dunno how i feel…all i know is that this feeling i have deep down in my chest,heart,and soul is the feeling that i may always carry with me ‘til death.

i dunno,i’ll see how i awake tomorrow.

hei hei

xoxo

I'm trying not to think about you,can't you just let me be.

Another day of hanging out with my best mate,we did some Christmas shopping which always ends up being fun.she also stayed here for a couple of hours and my mum even got to pierce her ears.

she just left like thirty minutes ago.

there's nothing much that has been happening with me during this break,i did though,last night make a painting of Apollo;my sister's dog,for her as a Christmas present...i really loved how it ended up,it's quite cute.

i'm pretty excited to get dressed up for this Friday :)

i hope you're all enjoying your break!

hei hei

xoxo

oh.wow.lovely.

it was such a wonderful morning.

my mum came back from the hospital around nine in the morning,which i was very happy to see her as soon as i came down the stairs.she made me some chicken noodle soup which was amazing.

now i'm sitting my the window watching the raindrops hit the floor,while i listen to both of Jenni Vartiainen's albums.i think after i'm done with that i will go onto listening to Manna's albums.both their albums make me feel wicked awesome with this weather.

i feel like going out,getting wet,unraveling mysteries,or even crying about my past.

later on i'm going shopping with my dad for my best mates Christmas present since i wasn't able to do that yesterday.

hei hei

xoxo

I'm killing loneliness with you.

Okay,so maybe i am a little dressed up for Mige's birthday...
but can you blame me,it is a pretty big deal for me!
it's been raining all day since Friday morning and i am in love with this weather,it's supposed to rain all week.i'm also enjoying a HIM marathon,as i always do whenever it's their birthdays.
i'm pretty anxious for tonight too for the new Misfits Christmas special...but of course i have to wait 'til seven since i'm not in the UK :p

on another note i may go do some more Christmas shopping when my sister gets here.
i still have to buy something for my best mate.

hei hei
xoxo

When we fall.

A couple of pictures i had taken this past finals week!
and of course yesterday when me and my best mate took pictures in the rain,it was wonderful as i had already mentioned yesterday.also last night i had taken Sid out of her cage so she can roam around in the carpet,she was having so much fun,she kept looking up the Christmas tree :)
i think she loves this time of year.
later today i'm going Christams shopping for my darlings Sidley,Lucy,Apollo,and Charlie.
then i'll be working on my "happy birthday Mige" shirt for tomorrow!

hei hei
xoxo

Echoes.

Had an amazing day with my best mate Beidy today.

started off the morning by going to work with her and we got free rounds at the arcade,after that i slipped in the rain and fell on my arse since i thought i could "skate" with my boots,haha it was actually pretty hilarious.

it rained the whole day which made things even more spectacular.

after her work we headed to the airport to bust a mission and went to pick up her brother and his friend at his school,from their we dropped by McDonalds to eat;since we did not eat all day.

we ended up parking and just us four eating in the car...as the raindrops hit the rooftop,it was wonderful!
then we head over to the theatres to go watch Yogi Bear.her brother and his friend made us laugh the whole ride their and going back home.

i just had a wonderful day with her!she's the best mate that everyone should have...but i have :)

hei hei

xoxo

Hide and go weep no more,unless you want to.

I am officially done with finals :D
and i can finally sleep forever and ever,but of course first i had to watch the new episode of Misfits,and let me tell you that it was wicked.

i thought it was the best episode up to date!now i can't wait for next weeks Christmas episode!

hei hei

xoxo

Sweet Pandemonium.

Listening to The Script at this very moment,
while i'm reading an article for tomorrow's visual language and culture final.i only have two more tomorrow and i'm done.
luckily tonight i can get more sleep than the past couple of days,i've been awake for two days o.o
i feel like a walking zombie.
i finished making my dress this morning for one of my class finals,my teacher loved it,i'll post pictures up when my sister puts it on.

hei hei
xoxo

This is the collapse.

Just going to keep this one small and simple.
i have not slept in over 24 hours and i am about to die,i feel like freaking out!!!
i hate finals :/
they always make me feel depressed and sometimes helpless.
but,Thursday afternoon is my last final,i seriously CAN NOT wait to get them all over with.
i don't even know if i may sleep again tonight.

hei hei
xoxo

Pretty like a flower on a tomb you are.

I'm still working on my illustrations final,all i have to do is paint my girls in and then put them on this black board.
the picture of me with the Mexican flag was a picture i took for my visual language and culture final,it was about my race.and i talked about how i was mixed and the part of me that always gets talked rudely about is the Mexican side of me.but i thought that there's so much beauty in a culture that some people just refuse to see.

anyways,i must get back to finishing this project up and listening to my HIM SWRMXS album!
hope you all have a great finals week!

hei hei
xoxo

If you want to see her smile again,don't show that you're afraid.

busy,busy,busy work.
this week is finals week and i can't wait for every single one of them to be done with.
i seriously can't wait for all my project to be turned in,so i can just some home and sleep for three weeks straight.
right now i'm working on my inspirational board,illustrations,flats,and then working on my dress.then tomorrow i'm going to get my trends book printed out.

hei hei
xoxo

Over my head.

I'm satisfied with my project i just need to add all the music into the powerpoint :D
movies,drawings,and creating stuff is all that's happening tonight.
Thursdays episode of Misfits was brilliant,i can't wait for the next episode.
just a small post today :)

hei hei
xoxo

Neverending rain on your little parade,nothing to do with a love affair.

Working on my power point for my final this upcoming Wednesday,but i'm just taking a small break.i'm almost done though,so hopefully tomorrow i will head over to staples and get it printed out into a book.
later tonight i'm going to finish up my dress that's also due that same day.
then tomorrow i can finally finish up my Fashion illustrations for Tuesday,i always finish those in one day.

i just can't wait for my three week break,it is very much needed.
all i'm thinking about for plans is sleeping in all day :D
well,i leave you all at that.

hei hei
xoxo

It looks like an early winter for us.

These are a few things that i got on my birthday and that i purchased myself on black Friday.
the navy blue and white stripes knit sweater my friend Cristal got me for my birthday and it is really warm...and i looooove that it's over sized.
the black furry boots my mum and dad gave me those for my birthday. they are also really warm and they have like a two inch wedge;they are also really comfy,almost feels like you are wearing casual shoes.
the white knit beanie with the poof i purchased from Forever 21 and it's in "oatmeal" colour.
it's my favourite at the moment.the navy blue i actually had for years but really haven't worn in.i love that it looks like a Russian hat when it's on my little head 'cos you mostly see the furry part of it.
the two long sleeved shirts i also purchased from Forever 21 and they are comfy casual shirts.
the candy is just to satisfy my sweet tooth,and i still have some ferrero rochers :)
and as for my Harry Potter jelly beans i''m taking my sweet time with those,i've only eaten three...i had them when the first came out a long time ago so the fear that they will be gone is what's keeping me from going mental on them haha.
i hope you all had a lovely day like i did,
and i feel really good that i actually posted something of my own...
i'll be doing more of these soon...photo wise though.

hei hei
xoxo